Very sorry to hear that, I'm sure we've all lost someone close to us at some point in life, and it never gets easier. For me, the most important thing to remember at a time like this is the good times you had, and the second most important thing to remember is that this is part of life and will happen to us all at some point. I take comfort in the thought that I will see my family who has passed in the next emanation.
“More evil gets done in the name of righteousness than any other way.” - Glen Cook
"Every person is the center of their own universe" - My dad
"I reject your reality and substitute my own" - Adam Savage